I MOVED!
Dec. 23rd, 2007 | 02:19 pm
mood:
apathetic
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I GOT TAGGED! *eyes Charwill*
Aug. 19th, 2006 | 09:23 am
( I shall get back at Charwill for this! XD)
Six Facts About Yours Truly:
1. I sometimes wonder if I'm a bisexual.
2. Although I've always told myself to be who I am, I always end up dressing like someone else and actually feel comfortable about it.
3. I am always reminding others of some cartoon character they saw on TV.
4. I sometimes dream of myself as a pirate who rules the Seven Seas. XD
5. I once dreamt that I was chased my giant, neon snails with sharp teeth.
6. I seriously believe that if we achieve World Peace, there will no longer be hatred and problems in this world.
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Jul. 22nd, 2006 | 04:24 pm
| ✓ I miss somebody right now. (Miss a lot of people. Not just one. But sure, there's only one that occupies my head the most. XD) | ✓ I don't watch much TV these days. (Exams exams exams) | ✓ I own lots of books. (Tonnes!! Muahahaha...) |
| ✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. (Glasses! Contacts are Evil!) | × I love to play video games. (Video games bore me...) | × I've tried marijuana. (Yucks!) |
| × I've watched porn movies. (Eugh, GROSS!) | ✓ I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. (I'm totally WHACK! XD) | × I believe honesty is usually the best policy. (Hmm... I'll have to think about that...) |
| ✓ I curse sometimes. (I've only learned swearing recently! :D) | ✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (Oh believe me, I was WORSE...) | × I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. (Sharp and Pointy things scare me...) |
| × I have broken someone's bones. (*cracks* *shiver*) | ✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. (No one's perfect) | × I hate the rain. (NO ONE CAN HATE RAIN!!!) |
| ✓ I'm paranoid at times. (VERY PARANOID) | × I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (No plastic surgery! Surgery BAD!) | ✓ I need/want money right now. (MICHELLE'S IN DESPERATE NEED!) |
| ✓ I love sushi. (Sushi Yummy!) | × I talk really, really fast. (Not really. I can go as slow as a turtle...) | × I have fresh breath in the morning. (You DON'T want to smell MY breath in the a.m.) |
| × I have long hair. | × I have lost money in Las Vegas. (Never been there) | ✓ I have at least one sibling. (Two actually.) |
| ✓ I was born in a country outside of the U.S. (Glad to be Malaysian) | × I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. | × I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. |
| × I like the way that I look. (I'm self-concious) | ✓ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months. (I'm guilty. Always have been...) | ✓ I am usually pessimistic. (Yeah, at times.) |
| ✓ I have a lot of mood swings. (A LOT!) | × I think prostitution should be legalized. | × I slept with a roommate. |
| ✓ I have a hidden talent. (I can CHUCKLE like a CHIPMUNK!) | × I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. | ✓ I have a lot of friends. (At least, I think I do...) |
| ✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex. (Yeah, embarrasingly... Accidently though!) | ✓ I enjoy talking on the phone. (Loads... XP) | × I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. |
| ✓ I love to shop and/or window shop. (Shopping!!! YEAH!!!) | × I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. | × I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. |
| ✓ I have a mobile phone. (Sony Ericsson K608i baybeh!) | × I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. | × I've rejected someone before. |
| ✓ I currently like/love someone. (Head-over-heels entirely) | × I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. | × I want to have children in the future. |
| × I have changed a diaper before. | × I've called the cops on a friend before. | ✓ I'm not allergic to anything. |
| ✓ I have a lot to learn. (Life is something big in a small package.) | ✓ I am shy around the opposite sex. (Just a bit though...) | × I'm online 24/7, even as an away message. |
| × I have at least 5 away messages saved. | × I have tried alcohol or drugs before. | × I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. |
| × I own the "South Park" movie. | × I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal. | ✓ I enjoy some country music. |
| ✓ I would die for my best friends. | × I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist. | × I have used my sexuality to advance my career. |
| × I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. | × I have dated a close friend's ex. | ✓ I am happy at this moment. |
| ✓ I'm obsessed with guys. (Drool over them!!) | × Democrat. | × Republican. |
| ✓ I don't even know what I am. (Yesh. I am an unknown.) | ✓ I am punk rockish. (Just a little bit. :)) | ✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger. (Totally) |
| × I study for tests most of the time. | × I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. | × I can work on a car. |
| × I love my job(s). | ✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now. (Pretty much content) | × I have more than just my ears pierced. |
| × I walk barefoot wherever I can. | × I have jumped off a bridge. | ✓ I love sea turtles. (Turtles are Gods!) |
| × I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup. | × I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. | ✓ I am proficient on a musical instrument. (Piano, Guitar...) |
| × I hate office jobs. | × I went to college out of state. | × I am adopted. |
| × I am a pyro. | × I have thrown up from crying too much. | ✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved. (You've hurt me, but I still love you as a friend. No matter what. I love You.) |
| ✓ I fall for the worst people. | ✓ I adore bright colours. | × I usually like covers better than originals. |
| × I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays. | × I can pick up things with my toes. | × I can't whistle. |
| ✓ I have ridden/owned a horse. (Ouchies for my butsies) | × I still have every journal I've ever written in. | × I talk in my sleep. |
| ✓ I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century. (Sometimes I secretly wish I wasn't even born at all...) | ✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (But they never ever work...) | × I wear a toe ring. |
| × I have a tattoo. | × I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. | × I am a caffeine junkie. (NO!!! NO COFFEE!!!) |
| ✓ I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all. (Teehee...) | × If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder. | × I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better. |
| × I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner. | ✓ I'm an artist. (Well, sort of.. :)) | × I am ambidextrous. |
| × I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed. | × If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony. | × I have terrible teeth. |
| ✓ I hate my toes. (Hate them! They're U-G-L-Y...) | × I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me. | × I have more friends on the internet than in real life. |
| × I have lived in either three different states or countries. | × I am extremely flexible. | ✓ I love hugs more than kisses. (Totally. Hugs we get them from anyone. But we can't kiss just anyone now, can we? :)) |
| × I want to own my own business. | × I smoke. | × I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else. |
| ✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal. (I'm CRAZEH! Never normal.) | ✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then. (I'm a very EMO person. :P) | × I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons. |
| ✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits. (They look sizzlin'!) | ✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me. (I want people to love me.) | ✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds. (I daydream my days away) |
| × I have played strip poker with someone else before. | × I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help. | ✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal. |
| × I can't stand being alone. | ✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time. | × I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again. |
| × I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment. | × I'm a judgmental asshole. | × I'm a HUGE drama-queen. |
| × I have travelled on more than one continent. | ✓ I sometimes wish my father would just disappear. (You hurt her, I hurt YOU...) | × I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am. |
| × I am a Libertarian. | ✓ I can speak more than one language. (Bilingual) | × I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be. |
| ✓ I would rather read than watch TV. | × I like reading fact more than fiction. (No! Fiction is better.) | × I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do. |
| ✓ I have no piercings. (Piercings are scary man!) | × I have spent the night in a train station or other public place. | × I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried. |
| × I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night. | ✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it. | ✓ I like most animals better than most people. |
| × I own a collection of retro games consoles. | × The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver. | ✓ I have hit someone with a dead fish. (DRAMA! Hahaha...) |
| × I am compulsively honest. | × I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired. | × I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers. |
| × I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex. | × I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders. (I am still pondering about this question...) | × I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to. |
| × I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on. | × I dislike milk. | × I obsessively wash my hands. |
| × I always carry something significant around with me. | × Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair. | ✓ I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others. |
| × Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother. | ✓ I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document. (Teehee...) | ✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird. |
| × I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time. | × Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed. | × I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won. |
| × I do not 'get' most comedy acts. | × I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing. | ✓ I don't like to chew gum. (They annoy me...) |
| × I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it. | × I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car. | × I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years. |
| ✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other. (I aim for World Peace, thank you.) | × I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly. | ✓ I love to sing. (Singing is soothing) |
| × I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up. | × I have a custom-built computer. | × I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it. |
| × I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human. | × I've gone skinny-dipping. | ✓ I've performed in three plays. |
| ✓ I enjoy burritos. (Tasty) | × I'm Irish and loving it. | × I have a thing for redheads. |
| × I am a twin! | ✓ Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'. | × Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else. |
| ✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes. (Oh, how I WISH...) | × I sleep more than 12 hours a day. | × I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough. |
| ✓ I need more time to myself. | × I wish I was more open-minded. | × I hope that I go really prematurely grey. |
| × I download songs from the internet. | × I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend. | × I say random things to freak people out. |
| × I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note. | × I love playing Truth or Dare. (Just truth would be nice.) | × I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it. |
| ✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone. (Music heals my soul) | × Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems. | ✓ I think this survey is particularly long. (VERY...) |
| × I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones. | ✓ I can only hate someone that I love. (Honestly. I hate them, but I love them more after that. :)) | × I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks. |
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When it All Falls Apart
May. 31st, 2006 | 12:20 pm
location: Home
mood:
- Seeking Help from the Inside
music: When it All Falls Apart- The Veronicas
I'm having the day from hell,
It was all going so well (before you came)
And you told me you needed space,
With a kiss on the side my face (not again)
And not to mention (the tears, ashame)
But I should have kicked your (ass instead)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream
Cause baby
Everything is fed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No
Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are (anymore)
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours)
And not to mention (I drank too much)
I'm feeling hung over (and out of touch)
Attention to stop temptation to scream
Cause baby
Everything is fed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No
Can it be easier?
Can I just change my life?
Cause it just seems to go bad everytime
Will I be mending?
another one ending once again
Everything is fed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up (out) where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No [x2]
Gotta pick myself out cause things are mended
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To Mum...
May. 29th, 2006 | 03:01 pm
location: Home
mood:
- Hear me...
music: That's All I Ask of You- OST Phantom of The Opera
I wish I could hate you, but I can't. Never.
I wish there was a way I could tell you how I feel, but I'm afraid of getting hurt.
I wish I were the other two of my sisters, but that's impossible.
I wish I could tell you how I feel, but you wouldn't care more or less abt it...
Why is it that you won't leave me alone?
Why is it that you like to hurt me?
Why do you like to pressure me when it's not neccesary?
Why is it that you want me to be like Joanne so much?
Why is it that you only like your children to study study study?
Why is it that you don't approve of what I do?
Why is it that being Chinesey is so important to you?
Do you realise that somehow you've got no friends mum?
Do you know why people think that you're snobbish?
Do you know how much it hurts when my friends think that you're creepy?
Do you know how much it hurts me to know that you don't love me as much as my two other sisters?
Do you know how much I suffer to know that you don't like hugging me but you hug Joanne and Vanessa often?
You might think that I'm just crapping, but it's true. All true.
You might think that I'm just all up in my head, but you're just in denial.
You might think that I'm thinking too much, but I'm trying to speak out.
I'm trying to reach you mum, so just grab hold of me.
I'm trying to be the daughter you once loved, so just accept me.
All I wanted was a hug, just one long hug, so just take me as I am.
I'm trying to tell you how I feel, so just listen to me.
Mum, I'm alone. I need someone to love me. What more do I have to ask for than a mother's love for a child? Is it so difficult to love me like you did before? I can't accept the fact that you're biased mum. You've always been so fair, so nice, so loving, so caring, so attentive. I don't blame you for changing. All those problems you have with dad. All those nights you've cried. All that suffering. But I want to let you know that somehow, deep inside me, I love you more than anyone in this world. So please, love me back. That's all I ask of you. One kiss on the forehead and one long hug that suffocates me. It's all I needed.
So please stop hurting me. I've cried 3 days in a row because of you. And just for you. I will study hard, but I don't have to prove it to you. It's in your heart to know that I will study and I've always been studying. I wish there was a way that someone can tell you this for me. I can't do it, coz I'll start breaking down the minute the thought runs into my mind.
Can you understand now?
Please.
Hear me out, mum.
I LOVE YOU.
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I'm Rogue!!
May. 28th, 2006 | 09:02 am
location: Home
mood:
: X-MEN!!!!
music: Ultimate- OST Freaky Friday
<table width=350 align=center border=0 cellspacing=0 cellpadding=2><tr><td bgcolor="#CCCCCC" align=center><font face="Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif" style='color:black; font-size: 14pt;'><b>You Are Rogue</b></font></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#DDDDDD"><center><img src="http://images.blogthings.com/whichofthex
You're reluctantly special. In fact, you long to be normal.
You consider your powers to be a curse, and something you can't control.
Powers: absorbing other people's memories and abilities, weakening and killing people with your touch</font></td></tr></table><div align="center"><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/whichofthexmen
**Hmmm... In case you ppl can't see the above code (coz I can't), it says that I'm Rogue. At first I was Jean Grey, but I retook the test, and it came out as Rogue. :)
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For a friend... from a friend...
May. 27th, 2006 | 01:40 pm
location: Miri
mood:
- Please understand~
music: Strong Enough to Breathe- Hanson
They say there is nothing LOVE can't heal,
Why don't you come on down so you can feel what I feel?
I know what to say but don't know where to begin,
I feel I'm losing you beneath my skin,
Is there a resolution for this pain that I'm in?
Sitting all alone in this place,
Even though we're here face to face,
There is nothing gone
but there's something wrong
-adapted from "Underneath" by Hanson
My dearest friend, you know who you are. I want to let you know that it's hard for me to see that you are feeling this way. Your depression makes me sad and hurt Underneath. You're making it hard to breathe. I want you to understand that if you're hurting, I'll be there for you throughout the way. And it doesn't matter if I got hurt in the proccess. As long as you're happy, then I'm happy. Please don't stay blue.
I'm sorry too.
I'm sorry that my moodiness got you angry. But I need the moodiness to live through myself.
I'm sorry that I didn't tell you why I was feeling moody. But somethings are meant to be left to wilt away.
I'm sorry for staying angry at that 'certain someone'. But there are things that I can't figure out. And I need time.
I'm sorry for everything I made you do. I have no excuse for that.
I'm sorry for being such a Green Monster. It's unintentional. My feelings are uncontrolable. I'll try my best to endure.
I'm sorry for being so childish. My inner self has never grown with my physical appearance. I'm still a young kid at heart.
I'm sorry for being so sensitive. The surface of my heart cannot sustain even the slightest scratch from the lips of others.
As your friend, I have to be honest to you. I cannot lie. I Love You. Out friendship means everything in this world to me. Yes, you have indeed hurt me last time in the converstation we had when we were online. Sarcasm and words that I know not the meaning of kills me slowly.
I hope there's something I can do to make you forgive me too. I really cherish the bond between us and if it happens to corrupt our friendship, I don't think I'll be able to live. Yes, it has that big of an effect on me. That's because I really Love you. You are fun and special and you are one of my closest friends now. If you stay angry or irritated or annoyed or pissed at me, I won't know who to turn to anymore. So please, don't stay that way. Just remember that I'll always be by your side, guiding you through the good times and the bad, forever and always.
So don't be sorry. The one who should be sorry would be me.
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I'm all about the X-Men!
May. 27th, 2006 | 01:25 pm
location: Miri
mood:
crazy
music: Touch- Clay Aiken
XMEN just rocks! I love love love XMEN! Am deciding to collect everything that's got to do with X-men now. I'm like HIGHLY addicted. @@ Haha, ignore meh!
